My days all look the same. I work from early morning to late night, edit, adjust, select. I love the days where I go out and shoot portraits, and that is my main job and income these days. There are no real travel plans on paper, and maybe that's ok. I still hope to make it to Madrid before Lily leaves in July and there is a vague plan to visit Southern Italy and Southwest France this summer, but I feel like I can't book flights or make commitments just yet.

I try to take a week or two off of sitting in front of my laptop this month, but I am not sure that I can. Things cross off my to-do-list too slowly and when I hurry, my clients often take their time.

A big mark yet to cross off is to finally update my website with all the recent work I've done. I feel like I need a bit of empty space in front of me to do so, because I want to do this whole-hearted.

I worry a lot that what I do is not good enough. But actually, these past months have showed me that it doesn't need a big journey or a spectacular event to deliver a good photograph. Maybe we can just take the time and sit still a bit, reflecting on what we really want, before throwing ourselves into the wild again. Mini-me is so grown up already. I just want to be here and watch him. That's all I want for now.


















All photos: Carolin Weinkopf via iPhone